LYRICS
some time, alone - november 6th 2020
some time, alone
can’t get enough
do you know what I mean or can you at least try baby, you know this is not as it seems but if I told you what really matters now keeps me out the cold really gets me on you would know that in this moment I just need some time alone I promise you that nothing’s wrong please don’t cry like you do when you’re mad you know I always try, yeah I always do and all I ask of you is to wait a little more, breathe a little more stay away a little more I can’t get get get get get get get where I want unless you let let let let let me out of your heart I only see my time pass by I don’t mean to be cold I don’t want to be mean but everytime you beg I feel I’m done cause I know how to keep my mind at large I won’t sit still whilst time runs out someday you will get it all until then I really want to get get get get get get get what I want so won’t you let let let let let me out of your heart I can’t get get get get get get get where I want unless you let let let let let let let me out of your heart I only see my time pass by I only see my time pass by 
friends
I set myself free
in my own time now I‘m all alone I really don’t mind but would you leave it out when you tell everyone about us so much went so wrong between me and you now that it’s done you can tell all your friends without me around you can take turns with everyone you can tell all your friends even now as I‘m on my own it wears me down and I‘ve lost control after all we’ve been through would you tell everyone leaving out how you made me feel and what went wrong now that it’s done you can tell all your friends without me around you can take turns with everyone you can tell all your friends you can tell all your friends 
Heaven knows how far I’ve gone
sweet heart
can you hear me I failed to believe it something else took hold of me heaven knows how far I‘ve gone tried to reach above the sky fell down and found paradise He, who believes tell me, what set him free tried to reach above the sky fell down and found paradise reached for heaven, clawed through the clouds climbed for ages, no one by my side there were no stars in sight no one to teach me wrong from right shot for the moon but lost my disguise set my heart on fire just to survive heaven knows how hard I‘ve tried hell, this must be my paradise 
BAD THING
you really got me good
no I never stood a chance it got messed up nothing ever felt good I used to be so soft could only count my tears there was never a choice nor a reason to why I felt the way I did you got me good had to be dragged around nothing to soothe or heal operating my self only leaves me feeling numb got it outta my head got it outta my heart you got me good you really got me good you got me good you really had me for a fool leave my heart I‘ll drive you out like the bad thing you really are you’ll leave me in peace tonight no full moon will make it right I know, I‘ve tried it all leave my heart I‘ll drive you out like the bad thing you really are drag you outta my heart this is not where you belong get you outta my heart you’ve taken more than enough 
trouble is the only thing i know
trouble is the only thing I know
trouble is the only thing I know it wears me down, that’s how it goes when trouble is the only thing you know life is lonely so I‘m told I can’t get high when I‘m so low if there’s one thing you should know it’s that trouble is the only thing I know life’s too fast to love so slow so hold me close before I go trouble is the only thing I know trouble is the only thing I know it wears me down but that’s how it goes when trouble is the only thing I know |
TREAT YOU GOOD
so if they told us from the start
that we would come to a dead end it wouldn’t matter if it’s true when all I think about is you no I won’t sit down and wait I know I can set this straight let’s do the things we shouldn't do no they can’t keep me away from you please let me be with you There might be more to this than us but there is nothing else to discuss There’s nothing wrong in what we do Already thought this one through do you think that they can tell? that your silence has me in spells no they can’t tell us what we should do just let me be with you give me the feeling that I need to be down on my knees I’ll do exactly what you want when you keep staring at me you know, you really turn me on turn me on now that they know what we have done can we pretend and still go on? I can’t bare to see this end wasting the time that we have spent a different time, a different place or was it all about the chase but I can’t think of someone new I know I only want you give me the feeling that I need to be down on my knees I’ll do exactly what you want you can treat me like a dog you know, you really turn me on turn me on do you feel it I can feel it ‘cause if you feel it I can feel it I can feel it 
beat me
you can meet me
by the parking lot so you can beat me I just can’t get enough please believe me I wanna be messed up maybe you’ll teach me that I‘m not good enough I wish to see the stars so come, tear me apart don’t disappoint me now not after all this time don’t ever stop, just keep on, and beat me time will take it’s toll on me we will be no more with nothing left when you are done with me never release me because I‘m stuck to you you can’t defeat me when I‘m still part of you there will be pools of blood I‘ll watch us from above don’t disappoint me now not after all this time don’t ever stop, just keep on, keep on beating me time will take it’s toll on me we will be no more with nothing left when you are done with me time will take it’s toll on me we will be no more with nothing left when you are done with me 
killer scene
do you know
what I am still unknown to me should have let this be but there was something wrong with you or was it all within me something missing from me hollow like a killer should be how could anyone have seen there’s not a single mark left on me still there’s a sickness in me there’s a sickness in me I just wanted something I could feel I needed this so I could breathe something missing from me hollow like a killer should be I’m heavy, I’m cold if you wanted to live why’d you come so close no I never thought it’d end this way but if I knew would I have taken it this far something missing from me hollow like a killer should be I’m heavy, I’m cold if you wanted to live why’d you come so close 
SET ME FREE
will we ever know
where it all went wrong swore we’d leave it be but still you speak to me will we ever learn that there’s no return and now when all is gone and there’s no you and me won’t you set me free? why did you ever let me go? I did my best to let you know that I always felt alive being by your side I know there’s so much left untold these are the things we can’t control why can I never get it right? will I ever get it right? now that we’re done why won’t you leave and set me free will we ever know where it all went wrong why did we never get it right? will we ever get this right? set me free set me free 
3 am
I sit here waiting
for you to take my call and I am wasted can barely think at all I want to ask you to think this through once more it feels like years now since you walked out that door no I never asked for anything more hardly ever wished for someone other than you what did you want you never made it clear I’ve thought about it so many times this week at least I‘m honest about things I can control all I can say is I don’t know what to say now no I never asked for anything more hardly ever wished for someone other than you hardly ever loved by you hardly ever loved by you |
DEVOTION - OCTOBER 13th 2017
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REPLACE ME
Why won’t you just leave me
You know it will be done You know you don’t need me Why won’t you get it done Believe me You need to It will be easy You know what to do You don’t need To know why You don’t need it Just leave it You should blame me Erase me Replace me I can’t face it Can’t tell you why I won’t admit it Can’t say it out loud I know it You know it too You should leave me Just leave me You should blame me Erase me Replace me Why won’t you just leave me You know it will be done You know you don’t need me Why won’t you get it done So be it, come on and leave me It just has to be done It’s so easy, just tell me I know you will move on GET THESE THINGS OUT OF MY HEAD
Sun is gleaming
At midnight My heart is beating, about to break out All this time it takes to make sense All this time and still I’m not sane All this talk and no I won’t change I just can’t, I just can’t Get these things out of my head All that happens All that goes wrong It will be no one’s Fault but my own All this time it takes to make sense All this time and still I’m not sane All this talk and yet it hasn’t changed I just can’t, I just can’t Still this storm inside of my mind All the words I’ve tried to deliberate Turned me inside out still I can’t Get it clear, I’ve tried but I can’t Get these things out of my head LESSON LEARNED
Why Is it a lonely way
To get us through This mess we’re in It’s true What you said The more I talk The less I learn Lesson learned I will break You honey I’ll stay this night Then I’ll leave What Will I do Now that it’s time To leave this place It’s due to you And what you said The more I talk The less I know Lesson learned I will break You honey I’ll stay this night Then I’ll leave I will break Your heart honey Can’t make this right No I’ll leave I will leave 777 (DEVOTION, PT. 2)
Come in, I beg you
Let me hold you I know how you‘ve been You can’t let worry win And I will bend my heart To get elsewhere with you And hold you in my arms Please tell me what to do With time, you can show me How to love you, slowly I know how you’ve been I would do anything And I will bend my heart To get there, close to you And hold you in my arms Please tell me what to do Don’t fall over to the other side Out of reach, I need you in my sight I‘ll try my best to get you through the nights So stay with me, I’ll keep you safe and sound GOLDEN
How will I ever find home
When I’ve always been gone It’s easy for you but I Don’t really want to know why Now it’s over How I’ve waited Feeling sober I am done with you I would rather be alone I run this business on my own Where I’ll end up who knows But I will never crawl home Now it’s over How I’ve waited Feeling sober I am done with you Now it’s over I can taste it All is golden I did make it through SWEEP
On my own again
Riding in the wind Changed the gear and then I turned before the end You were gone again Gone along with them Driving on my own I belong to no one Sweep me down again And dry me in the wind There are days when time Seems to have no end You belong to them And I belong to no one Always stuck behind I’m stuck inside my mind You are what I loved And now you’re what I’ve lost Always stuck behind I’m gone before the end |
SOMEONE’S DEVOTION
I never told you
Why it’s over I lean in, whisper to you I don’t need to I don’t need to I don’t need to You’re bending over Wanting closure Just don’t lay your love here I don’t want it I don’t want it I don’t want it Learn to leave it Let it go This was over Long ago Learn to leave it Let it go We’re through, we’re over I would know Fell through my past lovers Stuck with no one I’ve loved someone But you wouldn’t know it Learn to leave it Let it go This was over Long ago Learn to leave it Let me go We’re through, we’re over I would know There’s your closure Why won’t you learn We’re through, we’re over Not my concern THE HEAVIEST OF STORMS (DEVOTION PT. 1)
When you were young, you were numb
You felt like nothing, you felt like no one What you wanted was to belong As time went by, did you love someone Where have you been, you don’t know Wherever you went, it all went wrong Things got slowly out of control You kept on stumbling over The same old stone Wherever you’ve been Whatever you’ve done You were always wrong Let things go too far And they will break apart So I can give you all And you will have my heart We got older and days went by Weather’s changed since and so have I Been a while now, yeah it’s been some time Do you know now your fault was mine Wherever you’ve been Whatever you’ve done You were always wrong Let things go too far And they will break apart So I can give you all And you will have my heart REAL THING
You go on
Like a hot spring Going on Going upstream You're the one You're my wet dream Can't slow down Beause you're the real thing You're the real thing Come get over Come on closer You're the real thing So roll me over And lean in closer Come undone You're electric Gives me thrills Makes me obsessive Pull your gun And knock me over Get it done Please come closer You're the real thing Come get over Come on closer You're the real thing So roll me over And lean in closer You should come over And roll me over WHY DO I ALWAYS FEEL THIS WAY
Sometimes living seems dull
Still I keep working She’s troubling my mind Am I ever the one Can you open your heart And leave her alone Would you be my love If I changed Was it all for her I wished it for me Will I never learn Why you’re not for me Through the heaviest storms I know I can carry The weight of your world If only you’d would let me Can you lock up your heart Tell me I’ve won Then you can be my love I can’t wait Was it all for her I wished it for me Will I never learn Why you’re not for me Was it all for her And nothing for me Will I never learn Why you’re not with me Why do I always feel this way Why do I never learn Why do I always feel like this Why can’t it ever work Was it all for her I wished it for me Will I never learn Why you’re not for me Was it all for her And nothing for me I don’t understand Why you’re not with me Was it all for her Then what about me I will never learn I cannot compete Why do I always feel this way Why do I never learn Why do I always feel like this Why can’t it ever work Was it all for her Then what about me I will never learn I cannot compete |
pale honey - maY 5th 2015
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BANDOLIER
Fell away, it won’t be near
For all you know you’re close to me I guess there’s no other way I wish there was another way Got me down back there Drag me up all the way I’ve been down I know I fell off, oh no No one else, they’re far from here No one else to bother me You can be my bandolier You can be my lover dear Got me down back there Drag me up all the way I’ve been down I know I fell off, oh no over your head
This city was never mine
I'm always fifteen steps behind And so they say I've lost my mind I'm talking over your head No one believes you now But I love the way You put me in the jailhouse No one believes you now But I love the way You put me in the jailhouse Walls are falling over again I lived long for the lonely reign Where are you now Do you require my desire I want you to No one believes you now But I love the way You put me in the jailhouse No one believes you now But I love the way You put me in the jailhouse youth
I get around
And I'm feeling my youth Golden when I leave I go where I please I feel fine when you're not mine I get around now I'm not bound I feel fine when you're not mine I get around, no I'm not down Why stick around When I'm feeling my youth Over when I leap Over where you weep I feel fine when you're not mine I get around now I'm not bound I feel fine when you're not mine I get around tease
I am a little uneven
And you are too golden Too bold for me Baby, I like you a little better When you dress in black Baby, I like you a little better When you dress in black Oh why you tease me so Why can’t you please me We drink chemicals and wine You let me know that You feel sad all the time But baby, I like you a little better When you dress in black Baby, I like you a little better When you dress in black Oh why you tease me so Why can’t you please me Oh why you tease me so Why can't you please me, no sleep
I thought for a while
I was gone And alone I thought for a while And couldn’t find My home I’ve been going down So please hold on Hang on I’ve been going down Oh, how I long Honey I’ve been gone too long Can’t come around Make my mind satisfied And drowned Hold me for a while I’m only low on my own If only for a while I only sleep when I’m alone We’ve been going down And I wont hold on, oh no We’ve been going down Oh, how I long Honey I’ve been gone too long Can’t come around Make my mind satisfied and drowned Honey I’ve been gone too long Can’t come around Make my mind satisfied And drowned |
0100
Can’t be enough for you
Right now it sees you through It’s been on your mind Darkness, you came in time No you never knew why No one ever knows why Can’t be right for you It’s wrong you know it’s true Waiting for your time Darkness, it made your mind No you never knew why No one ever knows why Darkness, it sees you through Darkness, it came for you No you never knew why No one ever knows why No you’ll never know why No one will ever know why DESERT
When I'm down baby
See what I can’t feel When I'm out, make me See what I can’t be The night brings me All way down honey Can’t deny you’ll see That I'm down baby I'm over I'm free Come morning and wash over me What I find in my mind Might be out of your sight Turn around to me See what I can feel I've drowned baby See what I can see lonesome
I never knew you'd run away
I could have left you with a stain In case I knew that it was over I could have walked away Nothing could make stay At least it can't go any slower Nowhere to find you Nowhere to find you Don't wanna find you Nowhere to find you Would believe you were lonesome Don't belong with me I never knew about the waste It's time for me to taste I know I'll get around without you Never been this awake I always lived to stay I know I'll get around without you Would believe you were lonesome Don't belong with me Could believe it would go so You and me were wrong fish
I never told you that I wanted this
To go this way I never told you why You shouldn’t believe what my dull eyes say So I spun around I fell off, off, off to the ground I think to myself What a wonderful world I never told myself for what reason I stopped to live I just lie to myself So I spun around And fell off, off, off to the ground I think to myself What a wonderful world I never told myself for what reason I stopped to live I just wanna be in your head I just wanna be in you bed So I spun around I fell off, off, off to the ground I think to myself What a wonderful world fiction
Get me
Before I leave Because your opinion It is mine It is a bliss Could I ever be You’re an abyss And I lay down Fiction All the time So go to sleep You’re all diseased again I know, so I go again And the sound will sweep You off your feet My friend It is a bliss Could I ever be You’re an abyss And I lay down Fiction All the time So go to sleep You’re all diseased again |